Music is threaded within and amongst the strands of my life. It is the memories, it is the now. It is the smiles, the movement, the sorrow. The discovery of the new, the comfort of the familiar. It has always mattered, always been something I have sought out. Yet this last year music has been […]
Somehow I have turned into someone who goes to the gym. Regularly. I’m not quite sure how it happened. One minute I was minding my own business enjoying my walks and mulling over the somewhat distinct possibility of doing some other physical activity. In the next, I find myself with a gym membership, a personal […]
Three weeks ago I posted ‘Blame it on the snowdrops‘. A post filled with the sadness of what was left behind when we moved. What I still miss deep in my bones. A post I worried sounded too full of regret, as though I found no happiness in our move. Because this is not […]
It was the snowdrops in the park that did it in the end. That caused the tears. You see I remembered the ones springing into life in my graveyard. The graveyard I walked through day after bleak day. The graveyard I walked through so many times the gravestones became as familiar as friends. I remembered […]
I am not one for making new year resolutions. I mean – what do you actually get from making them? Other than a feeling of guilt when almost inevitably they fall by the wayside weeks or even days after the clock has struck 12. After all nothing has changed from the hours before midnight to […]
We have done it. We have swapped the open fields of Cumbria for the urban sprawl of Leeds. Outside my windows, concrete and tarmac stretch unseen. Traffic hums, the darkness is no longer pitch black. There are sounds all the time, the unfamiliar surrounds me. So how am I feeling? After all the struggling living […]
Today was my last walk. The path my steps have followed day after day has been walked for the last time. We move tomorrow from countryside to city. It is a move I have been desperate to make for so long and is needed for so many reasons. Yet I spent so long being desperately […]
Apparently what you don’t do to someone who copes one day at a time, sometimes one hour at a time, is get them to move house. To a whole new part of the country. The outcome is not pretty. Having spent months living with all sorts of emptiness, my anxiety has come back full force […]
I appear to have got distracted from my planned next post! I fully intended to write to you a little bit about my trip to Orlando…and then I kept seeing photos popping up on my social media of all the sakura (cherry blossom) in Japan right now and I felt I wanted to write on […]
It seems that as soon as New Year has been and gone (if not even sooner), I start hearing people wishing the winter away for warmer and longer days. You rarely hear people say that it is their favourite season, all the others have their fans but poor old winter seems to be the one in […]